A Poem

Mood: Whatever

Blog:

Wandering
Watching
Wishing
Waiting

Gossip on the right
Giggles on the left
Fake smiles
False joy

They pass
I sit

Waiting
Watching
Wishing

I was once them
Flanked by friends
Now alone
Atteneded by air
Damned to despair

Searching for a friend
Silent prayers
Wishing for a stranger
Waiting for a friend
Still I sit

Waiting
Watching
Wishing

Up and down
Here and there
Materialize
Become real

Become true
Speak
Think
Become real
Still I go

Wandering
Waiting
Wishing

Forced smiles
Feighned delight
Dissolution
Once again

Waiting
Wishing

No place to wander
So I sit
Praying
Pleading

And still no one

Boot Camp

Mood: Louis Armstrong

Quote: "People try to predict the future, visionaries change it." -An ad I found in Time.

I wish:

1. There was more time in the day
2. I didn't have as much homework
3. I could write as well, and as fast, as I can think
4. If people were in love with me I would know who they were
5. I lived in an eternal summer

Blog: I decided, approximately thirty minutes ago that I needed to learn more. That I wasn't quite where I wanted to be, so, I tore down my story that I had been writing over the last two weeks (nearly 9 pages) and threw them away. I decided, I haven't read enough. I haven't figure out language enough. So, I went through my house, pulled off ten or eleven books that I decided to read, ranging from Benjamin Franklin to Walden and sat them in a pile. I have also devised a new regiment that I will attempt to follow. It is as follows:

• I will, over the next few months base most entertainment on literature.
• When I am not doing homework, I will be reading
• When I am not reading, I will be writing
• When I am not writing I will be playing guitar.
• I will only watch T.V. to watch: House, Heroes, The Office, and possibly Cold Case, or something special with the family.
• I will limit video games played to 2.5 hours a week (they promote creativity for me, I think so)
• I will only be on the computer, other than the reason specified, for posting, checking e-mail, and writing or doing homework. Other computer-based activities will be added as I enter phase two

This is to begin immediately and last for the next few months. Wish me luck, and if you have any book recomendations, please add one at any time and state the reason why.

Yours Truly,

Drake Frost

Life Goes On

Mood: The One Fine Day Soundtrack

Quote: "Its like our teachers thought, 'Well nobody is going to give you homework, so I guess I should, to further your education'. Unfortunately, all our teachers didn't bother to check with one another." -Kyle "Albino"

List of Homework:

• Physiology flahscards
• Physiology Cell Packet (mostly completed)
• Physiology Vocabulary worksheet
• Financial Literacy job interviews
• English (just multiply this by like a billion)
• Calculus Chain Rule (completed)
• Calculus Implicit Differentiation a.k.a. Chain Rule made longer
• Psychology Bag project
• Psychology Outlines

Movie Review: Trapped by the Mormons-A 1922 anti-mormon propaganda silent film. Lets just say its absolutely hysterical. The missionary dude looks like Dracula, and he has two evil missionary cronies. People being thrown of stairwells, and such lines as "Moonbeam" and "She is just jealous because you are so fair. So fair and delightsome" make this possibly the greatest movie ever made. 5/5

Blog: You never really get a break anymore, and I'm only writing because I started getting ready to go to work (we are doing inventory) earlier than I was actually supposed to. I have recently started the "Gentleman's Think Tank" with two of my friends where once a month we go out to Lunch or Dinner and discuss matters of religion, girls, life, psychology, and philosophy, or whatever else takes our fancy. This is all I can say about it for right now.

Time for work. Lets just say life has fallen into obscurity, but it continues to go at the same speed.

Ophelia's Legacy, Daisy's Desire

Mood: Pat Monahan and others

Quote: "If only we could stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time." -Edith Wharton

Best Things:

• Getting free stuff at restaurants
• Getting entirely unexpected and joyful flatteries
• People remembering your name
• Finding that most of your observations aren't just you

Blog: As I sat in English today amongst the intelligent, irritating, awesome, and the interesting, a topic came up, Daisy in The Great Gatsby. In the novel Daisy understands everything that goes on, she knows her husband is cheating on her but she chooses to act oblivious, and idiotic. In fact she goes so far as to desire that her daughter grows up to be a "pretty little fool", someone who is unaware of everything that goes on.

I have noticed this, to some extent amongst people, mostly girls, who wander the halls of my school. Many intelligent girls who are intelligent and quick witted, but they choose instead to be percieved as dull and ditzy. I began noticing this my freshman year and have been even more aware of it in recent events (if you read the post about my sister). A few of those girls are in my class, and it continually frustrates me, forcing me one step closer to a cliff. Are there not a thousand others who would gladly take inherit their natural gifts? Are there not an endless number of souls who crave intelligence? Natural ability? But these selected individuals throw it away, or at least disguise it, destroy it.

So, I raised my hand. And in a much more polite fashion related Daisy to these girls who I have so oft seen. That is when I learned the most fantastic information. It wasn't just me (and my friends who I pointed it out to), but a plethora of others who have written books, books, and done psychological studies, actual studies. It was the most liberating feeling, it wasn't just me, there were others who noticed the neuropsychological plague. The greatest feeling of all, was that it had a name. The Ophelia Complex.

"The Ophelia Complex describes adolescent girls who are concerned with acceptance and obedience and become unhealthy mentally due to their concern about how others perceive them." (http://www.case.edu/orgs/sigmataudelta/submissions/baus-ophelia.htm)

Of course this also affects men, but it has a greater occurance in those of the female sex. Who would have thought that my ideas would have a name?

I am not alone.